How to Maintain Your Authenticity When All Hell Is Breaking Loose.

           Not very long ago I woke up and realized that I have a few gray hair.  I suppose that happens.  I am 47.  I did become a Mei Mei in September a little more than a year ago. Hmmm, I wonder is it is because I had been letting my hair grow out....I am looking OLD, older than I ever have.  One of the supervisors looked at a picture of me and said," you look so young".  Well damn, that was just months ago!!!  I couldn't have aged that quickly!  Ok, haircut here I come. See you soon Trina! My clothes are KINDA fitting ok.  Pinky said that I am looking older.  I looked in the mirror....I do look like I am aging. It ain't looking too graceful either!  I have good genes. This isn't suppose to be happening. 
          I have been having some stresses, strains and struggles.  It is certainly showing.  My kids...TRIPPIN'. My oldest niece, DEFINATELY has lost her mind!!  Business things, behind!  Work...smh, I won't comment. What the FRENCHTOAST?! Wait onnnnne flipping minute! I am doing everything that I am suppose to do. I am doing everything that I can do. This has been going on for months.  The only thing that has been consistent is INCONSISTENCY.
S L O W D O W N
Are you serious? Is this a tingling in my right arm?!
Let's rewind.....inhale and exhale
Think what is going on here?
I have always believed that things happen for a reason.  The reason, many times has nothing to do with us nor should it be taken personal. Yeah, I believe in forces beyond the natural and their attacks but he isn't making that much happen. He is just messing around enough to discourage me, to block me, to prevent me from moving into my destiny, to put the fire out in my passion.
SO, how can I maintain my authenticity when ALL HELL APPEARS TO BE BREAKING LOOSE.
          Connect with positive people. People that will breath freshness into your spirit. People that will infuse you with positivity. People that will challenge you to ignore the temporal. This is a period that a GREAT change is about to occur. How do I know?  I know because I have believe in bible promises.
          Do what you love. Do you even know what you love anymore?! Do you remember that thing that made your heart smile? We spend a lot of time talking about what we don't want to do, say, see or even happen but there is less time spent on what we want to happen.
          Take a risk and try something new or adventurous. There are times that you hear your mind say," try it, do it". Listen and operate in doing that new or adventurous. Take a class, invest the money! Cut and or color your hair! Take yourself on a drip! Go to that new restaurant that you have passed a million times and wondered what the food is like.
          Do something for yourself.  At a month ago I got a haircut and color. If you have been flowing me than you know that my hair has been purple for two years. I cut the left side and added purple extensions.  I purchased a round trip ticket home to Chicago and a concert in celebration of my 47th birthday AND my new found freedom. Many times as mothers, as women, we put everyone else FIRST....then we neglect our needs wishes and desires.  In the event that we do purchase or do something for our self we feel guilty, ashamed and will go as far as returning or even consider returning whatever it was that we purchased for ourselves. Some of us will take it back and have the feeling of satisfaction as we shuffle out of the store with return receipt in hand and stuff the change into our purse.
The world will forever go on around you! Your self talk is strong, on the negative side. Cast your cares on HIM because He cares for you. Peace of mind comes piece by piece. Your strength is in your knowledge of the FACT.....You are a perfect idea in God's mind.

Be Authentic
Be Great