The Love of God
For the past few months I have been going through some serious changes. When I say serious, I mean serious. I did more than lost weight. You know, everyone has a heartbreak or heartbreaks. There have been so many things in my life that have broken my heart. PEOPLE, people have broken my heart. The people that I have loved the most broke my heart! The changes that I have been experiencing have me feeling changed, free, DAMN an overwhelm of forgiveness and love. There are new people in my life. There has been a reintroduction of a people in my life. I let go of people, place in things. I saw that people that said they loved me either didn't love me, couldn't love me like I needed to be love, didn't understand love or straight up LIED about the love they had for me. Damn.... right?! That right there was deep and eye opening, all of the reasons.
I came to the realization that all of the people that I said I had forgiven for breaking my heart, hurting my feeling or even offending me in the least little bit...I hadn't forgiven them. I had just IGNORED their arses! I hadn't blocked them on social media because they had to see me living well and doing well. There are two people that I had actually blocked from calling or texting. Their level of betrayal, to me, was the worst. Why?! Because, I love them. You just have a different expectation of people that you give your love to.
Last weekend, I had the opportunity to do something that I enjoy...volunteering. It makes my heart happy to do something for someone else. Interestingly enough, that is one of my Love Languages (Acts of Service). I have volunteered in different capacities for years. The feeling I get from giving is euphoric and addictive. This time, it was different. I was working hard. I was happy. I was smiling....I mean, for real smiling. My real HAPPY smile. Oddly enough, I hugged people that I didn't know. Must have been that overwhelm of forgiveness and love that I have been feeling 🤣🤣🤣 Seriously, my mood is better. I am more calm. I have been doing things outside of what I would normally do. Things that would upset me, just seem to make me laugh. I am not real quick to tell a person off, BUT I will...just not as quickly. I smile a LOT more.
15 "But your, O God, are both tender and kind, not easily angered, immerse in love and you never never quit."
Psalms 86:15 MSG
With age, comes growth and wisdom....HOPEFULLY. My prayer has always been and will always be for God to put me in the mix with people, places and things that will help and not hurt me. Fill me daily with Him. In these broken places fill me like the Kintsugi. I believe He has and He continues to mend me in those broken places. He has been filling me in those places with forgiveness and love. He has been filling me with mercy and grace. He has been feeling with with kindness. The love of God will cause you to walk outside of your personality and walk IN morality, character and humility.
20 If anyone boast, "I love God," and goes right on hating his brother or sister, thinking nothing of it, he is a liar. If he won't love the person that he can see, how can he love the God he can't see?
1 John 4:20
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